By Chloe Davidson, 87 Miles participant
I’m not going to lie, I was terrified. I’ve always been judged on my performances and anxiety will always get to me. So when I write, I usually hide behind my laptop screen in hopes no-one will find me. The fear of being mocked for my writing style has always petrified me, but I’ve found a way to get over that – a play-writing class.
I’m fusing my love of writing and theatre together. Brilliant! I’m with people I know who are actors that also share a love of scripts and literature. I’m not judged here. I’m encouraged. And that, to me, is everything. Everyone is so kind, so nice. They make me feel like I belong. I expected to be told that my writing was terrible, that I had no imagination, that I was just like every other 16 year old girl inspired by what was “hot off the press”. It was nothing like that in the slightest. That’s the good thing about creative writing – you’re never wrong. It took me until now to realise that.
I do a lot of writing. I’m always carrying a pen and notebook, it’s quite depressing really. I’m always scribbling down ideas, quick paragraph-long short stories when I’m struck with a lightning bolt of creativity and inspiration. Currently, I’m working on a supernatural novel and I may have to steal some writing tips and styles from the incredible writers we have here. I’m hoping to learn more on how to effectively write different kinds of works – whether it’s poems or plays, I’m in!
I have to admit, I’m still worried though. I’m in a group with some incredibly gifted people. I can’t put into words how scary that is. Being the youngest there, I feel the most inexperienced. I’m going to prove myself though. I’ll get better at this and become more confident. Hopefully by this time next year I will be proud to call myself an author.